On my facebook day page I have had several posts where I talked about not feeling productive and then I would list stuff. I've listed my daily activities like I wanted or needed validation that I wasn't just sitting at home worthless. I've come to realize that I needed that validation but not so much from those around me but from myself. What I think I wanted was someone to jump up and down and say - hey the floor is mopped or want me to cook you dinner? It took my oldest son driving from San Antonio to Corpus just to cook me dinner on Easter for me to realize that all of that is great but I had put my own worth so low that no matter what I was doing if someone didn't directly benefit from my actions, I was not productive and therefore just taking up space.
I have come to realize how much I have done in 27 years. How much I still do today. I am sitting here with a clean house; laundry almost done; finished a book and wrote for my blog and I feel good - I feel more than productive.
Why do we tie ourselves to the opinions or validation of others? I wish there was a real answer - like how you can explain how the sky is blue - but the truth is it happens and will keep happening unless you change. Well I seem to be all in and am doing some massive changes - so hang on to your hats :p)
